last night was hard. for some reason, this huge wave of loneliness and hurt and anger and fear washed over me, and i cried. i cried so hard that i couldn’t breathe. several times i had to make myself sit upright (i was laying down in bed) and force myself to just focus on breathing. and once i could, i’d just start crying again. it was… not good.
i realize i still have a lot of baggage i need to let go of. i have some issues i need to work out, not just forget about. there are some changes i need to make.
but i’m not alone.
church service was wonderful today. i needed that.