i’m going to lose him. it’s hitting me so hard right now as i’m sitting here crying. i am going to lose him.
nobody on earth will understand. only God. everyone i love wants him out of my life anyway. claim they want to see me happy. i’m more sad without him. maybe i won’t be crying over the bad stuff we go through, but that low aching pain of having him gone will settle in the bottom of my heart.
it’s not fair.