No ring shopping today, but probably later this week. I had a good day today regardless.
I keep thinking about the wedding lately — and the future. I feel like there will be quite a few big changes coming up soon. Buying the house and getting married next year and then hopefully having some babies. It will literally be like a new life. Sometimes it’s overwhelming but I’m ready for it.
Another change I’m speaking into action is our new jobs. My hunny and I both don’t like our jobs. I have to admit, I’ve gotten a bit discouraged with the job search and more complacent with just putting up with the one I have but I know it doesn’t bring me joy and I don’t feel like I’m growing at all. Plus I really would like to make more income and with the industry I’m in, I feel like it could take decades to significantly see any change in my salary.
I feel as though I need to be more active in prayer – asking God to not only help me identify a good position and have the employers see me in a favorable light but to have the courage to actually make the transition. The fear of what will happen leaving a somewhat stable job has crippled me, but I can’t see it that way.
When I left my job in Virginia, it wasn’t exactly a matter of necessity but because I knew I needed something more career-wise. I had tried getting another gig, a second job really, at a retail store but that didn’t work out. Then I got promoted at my current job which was nice, but my lease was ending and I didn’t like my current living situation with my roommates and couldn’t find a new place to live last minute. So with tears in my eyes, I quit my job at the cafe, went back to NJ, got a job after months of applying and moved down to MS. And here I am – fine, but missing that courage I had. The power that got me to leave a job I actually enjoyed to return home, which I never wanted to do. And the strength to take a chance and move somewhere relatively new and so far away by myself to do something I was trained in at school but hadn’t done in more than a year.
I pray for that courage again.