This week will be a better week. I am willing it.
Today, I cried. The tears started falling in church as the preacher’s sermon revolved around the topic of jobs/work. I couldn’t help it. I thought I could hold it off but they just poured out fast and silently. Then I went to my grandparents’ house and had to hear some insensitive comments from my uncles and it just did me in. I came home to my baby and cried til my eyes were bloodshot. But I’m feeling better now because of him. I love him so much. Just a hug from him is everything. I do want our families to be at our wedding, I do want to lose weight to look great in a white gown, I do want us to be able to have jobs to support ourselves first, but honestly I just want to be his wife. Our marriage will be blessed no matter the circumstances because God has destined us to be. Our hearts and lives complete each other.